Reconnecting With My Feminine Energy

For a long time, I felt out of touch with myself. I realized I was disconnected from my feminine energy when I noticed how isolated I had become. My life revolved around prioritizing men, leaving no room for my own needs or connections. Friends and family were either distant or completely absent because I had kept them at a distance. Deep down, I was ashamed to let anyone see how much I was struggling. Facing that reality felt unbearable. Slowly, I began to understand that femininity is not just about outward appearances. It is a nurturing, creative, and receptive energy. It is a way of being rather than doing. It is about flowing instead of controlling and embracing instead of resisting. In our society, which often values traits like logic, productivity, and action, reconnecting with the feminine can feel revolutionary.

I began to see examples of feminine energy all around me, often in places I had overlooked. Modern depictions in shows, books, and social media gave me glimpses of what it could look like. I noticed it in friends and family members, in local leaders, and in mothers with many children, all balancing strength and softness. Yet, for me, the journey back to my feminine energy has been anything but simple. During my pregnancy, I was deeply immersed in masculine energy, juggling work and the expectations I had placed on myself. When I became a stay at home mother after giving birth, it was a role I had not imagined for myself. My husband had originally planned to stay home, but life changed dramatically after our daughter was born. The transition felt jarring, and I struggled to find balance.

Tapping into my feminine energy while working full time during pregnancy felt nearly impossible. Postpartum life brought its own set of challenges, as I had to let go of the structured plans I had clung to so tightly. But as I began to value myself again, something beautiful happened. People who aligned with my energy started to come into my life. I felt more confident being seen and reconnecting with my community. Prioritizing myself became a healing act. I started saying no more often, carving out time for my education, reading, and personal growth. One of the most meaningful steps I have taken is learning Spanish as a way to heal generational wounds. My mother’s side of the family speaks Spanish, yet my sisters and I were not raised with it. We were the “no sabo” kids among our cousins, and that gap always hurt. Now, I value praying to my ancestors and want to do so in Spanish. I have also welcomed salsa music back into my home, reconnecting with a culture that feels deeply feminine and alive.

Expressing my unhappiness used to be difficult. It took time for me to recognize that my anger, shame, and guilt came from not honoring my own desires. Singing, dancing, stretching, and learning Spanish have become daily rituals of healing. Each day, I devote time to myself, and it has been transformative. I love waking up and starting my mornings with my vibration plate. I stretch, drink bone broth to warm myself, and sit in available sunshine. Prayer has become a part of my routine, helping me set clear intentions for the day. From stretching and singing to reading and writing, I have found joy in being present with myself and my desires.

Learning to receive has been one of the hardest but most rewarding parts of this journey. Asking for help and accepting it used to feel impossible, but the more I lean into it, the lighter I feel. I have stopped carrying the world on my shoulders and started sharing the weight. Simple acts, like getting dressed every day, eating full meals, and keeping my home in order, have become ways of showing love to myself. I have also found joy in caring for our three cats, enriching their lives with play, and finding time to do something that makes me happy each day. Whether it is art, dancing, learning a new recipe, or running errands with my daughter, these moments feel sacred.

When it comes to teaching my daughter about living happily in her feminine energy, I aim to lead by example. I support her decisions, whether it is about her outfits or how she decorates her room, and encourage her to embrace healthy self care habits. I help her with tasks instead of doing them for her, empowering her to trust herself. Together, we create rituals that celebrate femininity. On the first day of each month, we perform the cinnamon ritual at our front door. (Stand outside your front door and blow a pinch of cinnamon from your palm into your home while focusing on your intention. Leave the cinnamon for 24 hours to let the energies settle, then sweep it up and pour it outside into your garden or another natural place.) Every day, we brush her curly hair with rose water and say affirmations as we get ready. These small, consistent acts remind her of the beauty and power in nurturing herself and our home.

In the winter, I especially value my self care time. It is a season of warmth and reflection when I focus on staying cozy and refreshed. Dry brushing, flossing, shaving, waxing, exfoliating, and moisturizing are all part of my routine. I take care to keep my skin healthy, drink plenty of water and bone broth, and enjoy hot cacao as a comforting treat at the end of the day. I have learned that when I pour into my own cup, I am better able to pour into others in a healthy way. Creating from a place of love and insight, rather than shame or guilt, has brought clarity to my life. It was not easy at first. Prioritizing myself felt unfamiliar, and I struggled to let go of old habits of putting others before me. But now, I no longer feel pressured in my choices. My conversations and connections feel genuine. I am figuring out what I want from life and learning how to ask for it with confidence.

If there is one thing I have learned, it is to trust my instincts. My natural intuition is a gift when I allow it to flourish. This journey back to my feminine energy has been full of challenges and revelations, but it has been worth every step.

XO, Vixen Peak